This thought just hit me. After posting my blog entry entitled “On Blog Hits” (which by the way, sounds really lazy like it was just a spur of the moment thing that I could not find a more decent title to name the post by), I started questioning myself about the basic idea that surrounds writing. Am I writing for the mere intent of being read? If that is the case, then I have defeated the initial and most important purpose of writing and that is the exploration of thoughts and ideas.
Pardon me for over-romanticizing this act but according to my studies in popular culture, that makes me more lenient towards writing for what is considered “popular” knowing that it is what will drive more traffic into my site. Now I am beginning to hamper myself with all cuss words I could think of, haha.
Was I becoming more comfortable sharing my thoughts just because it is the worldwide web, after all. The scenario here is very much different as compared to when I was writing back in college (blame my penchant for grammar, I think I am obsessive-compulsive when it comes to that). I usually would not share my writings, even to friends, in fear of being ridiculed for the way I write, or if I had misinterpreted any theories. I’d like to say I was my own worst critic, and even now that still holds true.
However, the atmosphere in the blogging world is a lot looser and so I had let loose too. Nobody cares about grammar, ideas, or theories, you can basically talk about day to day events. Maybe that is where my confidence about my writing built up. I’d like to believe that was a positive impact on my writing.
As for my targeted 1,000 blog hits, I have just realized it is very much achievable at this point. After that, maybe I can let go of the idea that nobody is reading me or that my writings aren’t that good enough (even for my own standards). I would gladly quit bothering about the view counts on my blog, I’d leave all that work to the computer. After all, I hate numbers.